I know I have shared my broken heart openly, yet I feel a burden in October. I don’t want to feel obligated to share just because it is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. I am aware every single day. It’s not a month for me though, it’s for everyone else missing their babies. And it’s for everyone who thinks we should be over it by now. I want to feel less alone, and I want others to feel less alone. But it is also hard work to be vulnerable, and sometimes I just don’t want to be.
So tonight, instead of working on any of the several posts I wanted to share, I am just sitting. Next to Lane who is finally sleeping, my untouched crochet project on my lap. I turned on my “Calvin” playlist and am just going to sit with whatever feelings come. That is how I am going to honour myself and my baby who I dearly miss. ⭐️
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